So far, February has been pretty rough for me. I am jobless, bored, did I mention I’m jobless? It’s given me a LOT of time alone with my thoughts.
I miss you so much. I look forward to the day when I wake up and am not instantly overwhelmed with sadness. I know I had my reasons for leaving, it doesnt make the hurt any less. I think about you all the time. I wonder how you’re hurting. After all we’ve been through, I still want to make it all better for you. I feel so lost right now. You have been a part of me for the last 3 years. I am trying to find my way, but, its just not getting any easier.
Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you planned:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
by Christina Rossetti